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March 5, 2006

a secret admirer's secret

oh well nothing serious.. medyo kabado lang ako. cause ndi ko alam kung anong dulot ng ginawa ko. ndi nia alam, pero kilala nia ako. he's soo cute, feel ko layo namin. ba't ganon? ang hirap kase i've been hurt sa past ko..(its only 5 months since that oucchh day!) and now im here again. before i told myself na never na ulit ako mafo-fall.. pero what's thissss? 22o nga na kahit anong iwas mo, it will haunt you. msarap ang feeling but at the same time im scared. dami kong what if's.. what if he ignored me? what if may special someone na pala cia? dunno what 2do! e2 na nman ako sa starting line.. yko mag-expect, yko din mareject. he doesnt know.. how i wish!!!

Currently listening to: everybody here
Currently reading: my entry
Currently watching: what i am typing on the screen
Currently feeling: scared

Posted by gUrL_oN_tHe_moVe on March 5, 2006 at 10:40 PM as a stickied post | 3 comments

November 25, 2006

..::October 23, 2006::..

..::October 23, 2006::..

yan ang date na huli kami nagkasama.. i dont know what happened pero bigla bigla na lang wala na kame communication.. nagtext lang cia last November 1 and its just KAMUSTA KA?.. sobrang gusto ko na cia itext pero i dont know where to start. sobrang miss ko na cia pero may pride pa rin ako ehh.. alam ko from the very start masasaktan lang ako sa kanya.. pero still, i chose to be close to him.. dun ako masaya eh, wala ako magawa.. pero i didnt realize na after ng saya, doble ang sakit.. well,, i cant demand things from him.. after all, we dont have any commitment.. we can call ourselves as MU (mutual understanding) but no assurance kung ano pwede mangyari.. and i hate this feeling.. it hurts and there are times na i cant help but cry.. i wanna talk to him but there are things na nagsasabing wag.. siguro baka pag kinausap ko cia, mas masaktan lang ako.. may girlfriend cia, yes.. and thats the reason why i dont want any formality between us.. kulang na lang sa kanila kasal eh.. they're together for about 7 years na.. ano laban ko dun? wala di ba? and it sucks, really!! i hate this feeling, bakit cia pa.. marami ako suitors but i cant force myself to stop thinking of him kahit may girlfriend na cia.. one time nakapag-kwentuhan kame.. he admitted he likes me daw.. i dont know, im happy but at the same way scared.. kasi mahal ko din cia pero we cant be together.. wala ako sinabi sa kanya hanggang ngayon.. natakot ako ehh.. naduwag.. kelan ko pa kaya masasabi??

Posted by gUrL_oN_tHe_moVe on November 25, 2006 at 08:45 AM | Add a Comment

November 20, 2006

help me out..

..::October 23, 2006::..

yan ang date na huli kami nagkasama.. i dont know what happened pero bigla bigla na lang wala na kame communication.. nagtext lang cia last November 1 and its just KAMUSTA KA?.. sobrang gusto ko na cia itext pero i dont know where to start. sobrang miss ko na cia pero may pride pa rin ako ehh.. alam ko from the very start masasaktan lang ako sa kanya.. pero still, i chose to be close to him.. dun ako masaya eh, wala ako magawa.. pero i didnt realize na after ng saya, doble ang sakit.. well,, i cant demand things from him.. after all, we dont have any commitment.. we can call ourselves as MU (mutual understanding) but no assurance kung ano pwede mangyari.. and i hate this feeling.. it hurts and there are times na i cant help but cry.. i wanna talk to him but there are things na nagsasabing wag.. siguro baka pag kinausap ko cia, mas masaktan lang ako.. may girlfriend cia, yes.. and thats the reason why i dont want any formality between us.. kulang na lang sa kanila kasal eh.. they're together for about 7 years na.. ano laban ko dun? wala di ba? and it sucks, really!! i hate this feeling, bakit cia pa.. marami ako suitors but i cant force myself to stop thinking of him kahit may girlfriend na cia.. one time nakapag-kwentuhan kame.. he admitted he likes me daw.. i dont know, im happy but at the same way scared.. kasi mahal ko din cia pero we cant be together.. wala ako sinabi sa kanya hanggang ngayon.. natakot ako ehh.. naduwag.. kelan ko pa kaya masasabi??

Posted by gUrL_oN_tHe_moVe on November 20, 2006 at 07:17 AM | Add a Comment

November 17, 2006

..::October 23, 2006::..

..::October 23, 2006::..

yan ang date na huli kami nagkasama.. i dont know what happened pero bigla bigla na lang wala na kame communication.. nagtext lang cia last November 1 and its just KAMUSTA KA?.. sobrang gusto ko na cia itext pero i dont know where to start. sobrang miss ko na cia pero may pride pa rin ako ehh.. alam ko from the very start masasaktan lang ako sa kanya.. pero still, i chose to be close to him.. dun ako masaya eh, wala ako magawa.. pero i didnt realize na after ng saya, doble ang sakit.. well,, i cant demand things from him.. after all, we dont have any commitment.. we can call ourselves as MU (mutual understanding) but no assurance kung ano pwede mangyari.. and i hate this feeling.. it hurts and there are times na i cant help but cry.. i wanna talk to him but there are things na nagsasabing wag.. siguro baka pag kinausap ko cia, mas masaktan lang ako.. may girlfriend cia, yes.. and thats the reason why i dont want any formality between us.. kulang na lang sa kanila kasal eh.. they're together for about 7 years na.. ano laban ko dun? wala di ba? and it sucks, really!! i hate this feeling, bakit cia pa.. marami ako suitors but i cant force myself to stop thinking of him kahit may girlfriend na cia.. one time nakapag-kwentuhan kame.. he admitted he likes me daw.. i dont know, im happy but at the same way scared.. kasi mahal ko din cia pero we cant be together.. wala ako sinabi sa kanya hanggang ngayon.. natakot ako ehh.. naduwag.. kelan ko pa kaya masasabi??

Posted by gUrL_oN_tHe_moVe on November 17, 2006 at 11:26 AM | Add a Comment

November 17, 2006

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a secret admirer's secret

..::October 23, 2006::..

help me out..

..::October 23, 2006::..